Ch.. ch.. ch.. ch.. changes

I don’t like change. I’ve never liked it. And I don’t think I’m ever going to grow to like it.

Don’t get me wrong – I like it when I get there, it’s more the anticipation of change that I don’t like. I love being on holiday, but I hate that unsettled feeling before you go, and just before you’re due to come home.

There are big changes afoot for the Young family at the moment, and I have this constant feeling of unease and nausea.

Work’s up in the air. We’re moving house, but I don’t know where to or when yet. Young Daddy will be starting to work shifts. I don’t know where Ez and Fonz will be going to nursery, or even if they’ll be going to nursery at all.

It’s like I finally got to know my new self as a mother, and then I created a new identity as a working mother (one that worked too hard and was no fun whatsoever), but now things have to change all over again. I’ve lost all my focus and I can’t work out where I’m going, or even where I want to end up. There are too many options, too many paths to choose between. I’m struck down with indecision, and feel unable to achieve anything.

I don’t think the new year helps. I’m often anxious at the beginning of a year. It’s when you reflect on your life, and try and work out what you want to achieve in the coming year.

What would a life coach tell me? To write a list? To try to put things in order of priorities/importance? To identify my goals?

I just wish I could be more laid back about life. Take it as it comes. But then I guess I wouldn’t be me.

6 comments to Ch.. ch.. ch.. ch.. changes

  • Hi I just wanted to say that I completely empathise with what you’re going through. I had a bit of a melt down last night as our almost 2 year old son climbed out of his cot (again) meaning we had to convert it into a bed for his own safety. Already. It’s a small change to add to a list of other changes (including going back to work, pre-school visits and possible new jobs (which means new house) for partner)that are suffocating me.

    I too wish I could sit back and soak it all in as opposed to analysing everything and having to calm myself down before reassessing every situation! It’s exhausting isnt it? Well, stay strong and my advice (as small as it is) is just to breath. Breath it all in and breath it all away :-) Take care xx

  • Calm calm calm – you have your health which is important and that’s a good starting point. Everything will fall into place just wait and see. I know its maddening not knowing what’s around the corner but only time will tell xx

  • Emma Button

    I’m not going to preach at you about chilling out, you know that’s my forte but I will say this… What is meant to be will be (ke sera sera?) and if the world is throwing changes at you then maybe it is the right time to step back and reevaluate things. You’re all going to be fine, just you see.

    P.S. Don’t work so hard, it’s bad for the health! He he

  • I know change plus uncertainty can be unnerving (for me too), but if you can switch off a bit and focus on what you can do in the now I’m sure you’ll feel better for it. If you think too much about what’s going to happen before it actually does you may plan for things etc that don’t actually pan out. I’m sure you can hack all this even if it is overwhelming.

  • You’ll get there and everything will be accomplished you’ll see. I don’t think anyone likes change when they’re not in the driving seat themselves. It’s a case of sitting back and letting the universe do what it does best. Enjoy this time with Ez and Fonz as mucgh as you can as before you know it you’ll be back on the merry-go-round called life.
    Wishing you all the best xx

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